Mommy life is hard.
I'm tired. More tired than I can put into words.. and my kid sleeps through the night!
I feel like CRAP.. pregnancy does weird things to your body, and neglecting your bosy post-pregnancy because you're busy with 7,000 other things, well that makes it feel even worse.
So today was one of those days.. The kind where every single place I look I see something that needs to be done. Floors need to be washed, laundry is piling up, everywhere I look I see dust (life in a construction zone!)... and I couldn't do any of it. Why?
I'm overwhelmed.
Completely and utterly overwhelmed.
By my life.
As a wife.. As a mother.. A friend..
Today, I felt like I was failing at all of it.
Maybe it's true, and maybe it isn't, but today it felt true... lately it's felt true.
Here it is:
I feel like a failure.
Every time I'm short with my husband. Every time my daughter cries and I can't get her to settle. Every time I show up at a playdate and get stuck there for an extra hour (or three!) because feeding W is a bit of a process.. Every time I get behind in maintaining my home. Every time I don't respond to a text message.
And once I admitted this I let myself cry.. and cry.. and cry...... and cry... You get the idea.
Anyways.
Toward the end of my little (BIG) meltdown I got a text..
"Right behind your house at Walmart :) HI!"
And here was God's grace for me today. Ten minutes later I was at Starbucks with a dear friend. She knew. She understood. She's been here too. We all have bad days.
So today, I learned...
I'm not the only one.
I'm allowed to cry.
And the next bad day you have.. know that other mommies are having bad days too (even if there instagram or facebook updates tell you otherwise!) and that sometimes the best thing is to let yourself cry.
